me in lion mask

just so

Party and Birthday

long time ago, i love this series... Sex and the City... i watch this series 3 times already and i know i wont bored to watch it and in the last week to my birthday i prefer to stay at home and watch this series.

i like the way their freindship and they can have their own way to choose their life. and no judgetment, if they give some critic just so not angry if the other one dont do it.

5 mai is my birthday, i have my own way to celebrate, first im not used to celebrate my birthday, second i also have to save some money for other plan... i dont wanna work in restaurant all my life, i dont wanna always resign when i get stug in one restaurant to other hotel. i have to make plan to my next life as every body know its birthday and you have to make a plan what you want to do next year.

someone sent me message and asked to make party and i called direct after and said sorry i dont wanna make party for my birthday... and i dont need to explain why but because he thought he longer in germany and older than me, he is a senior of me and i have to do what he said. sometimes i wanna say... hallo im not "anak kemarin sore" and i have good study with good qualification. so older and longer not a mean he is the boss and i am the slave. because i respect to him i just silence and keep my mouth.

yesterday i have appointment with someone in gnosa and kity voo cafe to have some drink together. i met this one again and just say hi and do again what he does, i just stay there to see their reaction about what i did with my birthday. its true they totally change and have no interest any more to talk to me because i dint make a party. they dont know how much i have to pay for my last credit card billing because last month i bought some accesories, belt, red jacket, shoes all from zara and other think from ikea for my room. and they dont know i have to prepare a present for my gut friend birthday present next month. they dont know i have to pay my lifecost and my room, my germancourse fee and many things else. thats so silly and so emberrasing that they angry because of **** and totally changed. and i can see it yesterday. and they proud to say im longer here. i just think its kind of "anak kemarin sore"

yesterday i bought a hugo boss bag and t-shirt because its a present from my mom and its for me and just for me. and i still happy someone there stil care about my education and help some.

i love u mom and last night i so missed my ex and really want a hug event now we have really bad situation and i feel so lonely with this group and think they know what friend is. as my teacher said org indonesia cuma mikirin perut aja... but at least im not just think about this. i think how to buy Hugo hahahhaa... thanks mom. miss so much...

as my friend said to me... mbak mira sayogo... you dont need to afrais with someone greatman but you just need to respect them as they respect you... its one education

to some friend. i just wanna say what you did yesterday its anak kemarin sore. just ignore someone because of **** and i have to think other thing. i dont ask my gut friend who have next month birthday for party but i just prepare a present for him because i like and love him even sometimes he so arrogant to me heheheh but i think like him so much

he is my first friend in hamburg...

what goes around...

its like my situation now....
my situation is like the woman in this clip
ich liebe meinen mann sehr aber mein mann liebe sehr groß...





Hey girl, is he everything you wanted in a man?
You know I gave you the world
You had me in the palm of your hand
So why your love went away
I just can't seem to understand
Thought it was me and you babe
Me and you until the end
But I guess I was wrong

Don't want to think about it
Don't want to talk about it
I'm just so sick about it
Can't believe it's ending this way
Just so confused about it
Feeling the blues about it
I just can't do without ya
Tell me is this fair?

Is this the way it's really going down?
Is this how we say goodbye?
Should've known better when you came around
That you were gonna make me cry
It's breaking my heart to watch you run around
'Cause I know that you're living a lie
That's okay baby 'cause in time you will find...

What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around
What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around
What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around
What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around

Now girl, I remember everything that you claimed
You said that you were moving on now
And maybe I should do the same
Funny thing about that is
I was ready to give you my name
Thought it was me and you, babe
And now, it's all just a shame
And I guess I was wrong

Don't want to think about it
Don't want to talk about it
I'm just so sick about it
Can't believe it's ending this way
Just so confused about it
Feeling the blues about it
I just can't do without ya
Can you tell me is this fair?

Is this the way it's really going down?
Is this how we say goodbye?
Should've known better when you came around (should've known better that you were gonna make me cry)
That you were going to make me cry
Now it's breaking my heart to watch you run around
'Cause I know that you're living a lie
That's okay baby 'cause in time you will find

What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around
What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around
What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around
What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around

What goes around comes around
Yeah
What goes around comes around
You should know that
What goes around comes around
Yeah
What goes around comes around
You should know that

Don't want to think about it (no)
Don't want to talk about it
I'm just so sick about it
Can't believe it's ending this way
Just so confused about it
Feeling the blues about it (yeah)
I just can't do without ya
Tell me is this fair?

Is this the way it's really going down?
Is this how we say goodbye?
Should've known better when you came around (should've known better that you were gonna make me cry)
That you were going to make me cry
Now it's breaking my heart to watch you run around
'Cause I know that you're living a lie
But that's okay baby 'cause in time you will find

What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around
What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around
What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around
What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around

[Comes Around interlude:]

Let me paint this picture for you, baby

You spend your nights alone
And he never comes home
And every time you call him
All you get's a busy tone
I heard you found out
That he's doing to you
What you did to me
Ain't that the way it goes

When you cheated girl
My heart bleeded girl
So it goes without saying that you left me feeling hurt
Just a classic case
A scenario
Tale as old as time
Girl you got what you deserved

And now you want somebody
To cure the lonely nights
You wish you had somebody
That could come and make it right

But girl I ain't somebody with a lot of sympathy
You'll see

(What goes around comes back around)
I thought I told ya, hey
(What goes around comes back around)
I thought I told ya, hey
(What goes around comes back around)
I thought I told ya, hey
(What goes around comes back around)
I thought I told ya, hey

[laughs]
See?
You should've listened to me, baby
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Because
(What goes around comes back around)
[laughs]

Timbaland feat. one republic (apologize)

eh eh eh
eh eh eh
I'm holdin on your rope
got me ten feet off the ground
I'm hearin what you say but
I just can't make a sound
You tell me that you need me
-then you go and cut me down
But wait
You tell me that you're sorry
Didn't think I'd turn around and say


That it's too late to apologize, it's too late
eh eh eh
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late
eh eh eh
oh yeahhh, ooohh
eh eh eh


I'd take another chance, take a fall,
take a shot for you ooohhh
And I need you like a heart needs a beat
But that's nothing new yaaeeahh
I loved you with a fire red
[Apologize lyrics on http://www.metrolyrics.com]

Now it's turning blue
And you say
Sorry like the angel heaven let me think was you
But I'm afraid


It's too late to apologize, it's too late
eh eh eh
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late
eh eh eh
ooohh
eh eh eh
eh eh eh


It's too late to apologize, it's too late
eh eh eh
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late
eh eh eh ooohhh
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late
eyyyeeeaaahhh
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late
eyyyeeeaaahhh

I'm holdin on your rope
Got me ten feet ooofff the ground

frame for my website

my website project

Rumahku Indonesiaku-Cahaya Asa

A cigarate TVC from indonesia

Before and After by Photoshop

see how photoshop can make some variance for a design

before



after

Photo Session (Fashion)

Ringside - Tired Of Being Sorry

another version of Tired Of Being Sorry

so enjoy it


Lyrics is on posting before

Tired of Being Sorry (Enrique Iglesias)

I don't know why
You want to follow me tonight
When in the rest of the world
With you whom I've crossed and I've quarreled
Let's me down so
For a thousand reasons that I know
To share forever the unrest
With all the demons I possess
Beneath the silver moon

Maybe you were right
But baby I was lonely
I don't want to fight
I'm tired of being sorry

Eighth and Ocean Drive
With all the vampires and their brides
We're all bloodless and blind
And longing for a life
Beyond the silver moon

Maybe you were right
But baby I was lonely
I don't want to fight
I'm tired of being sorry
I'm standing in the street
Crying out for you
No one sees me
But the silver moon

So far away - so outer space
I've trashed myself - I've lost my way
I've got to get to you got to get to you

Maybe you were right
But baby I was lonely
I don't want to fight
I'm tired of being sorry
I'm standing in the street
Crying out for you
No one sees me
But the silver moon

Maybe you were right
But baby I was lonely
I don't want to fight
I'm tired of being sorry
I'm standing in the street
Crying out for you
No one sees me
But the silver moon.

Faith Hill - Cry

If I had just one tear running down your cheek
Maybe I could cope maybe Id get some sleep
If I had just one moment at your expense
Maybe all my misery would be well spent

Yeah.... could you cry a little
Lie just a little
Pretend that youre feeling a little more pain
I gave now I m wanting
Something in return
So cry just a little for me

If your love could be caged, honey I would hold the key
And conceal it underneath the pile of lies you handed me
And youd hunt those lies
Theyd be all youd ever find
And thatd be all youd have to know
For me to be fine

Yeah.... and youd cry a little
Die just a little
And baby I would feel just a little less pain
I gave now Im wanting
Something in return
So cry just a little for me

Give it up baby
I hear your goodbye
Nothins goin save me
I can see it it your eyes
Some kind of heartache
Darlin give it a try
I dont want pity
I just want what is mine

Yeah... could you cry a little
Lie just a little
Pretend that yourre feeling a little more pain
I gave now Im wanting
Something in retrun
So cry just a little for me

Yeah... cry just a little for me

Woo ooo, could you cry a little for me

Rihanna "Cry"

I’m not the type to get my heart broken
I’m not the type to get upset and cry
Coz I never leave my heart open
Never hurts me to say goodbye
Relationships don’t get deep to me
Never get the whole in love thing
If someone could say love me truly
But at the time it didn’t mean a thing

Prehook:
My mind is gone
I’m spinnin’ around
And deep inside
My tears I’ll drown
I’m losing grip
What’s happening?
I stray from love
This is how I feel

Chorus:
This time was different
Felt like I was just a victim
And they cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now I’m in this condition
And I’ve got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you’ll never see me cry

Did it happen when we first kissed?
coz its hurting me to let it go
maybe coz we spent so much time
and I know that it’s no more
I should have never let u hold me baby
Maybe why I’m so sad to see us apart
I didn’t give it to u on purpose
Gotta figure out how u stole my heart

Prehook:
My mind is gone
I’m spinnin’ around
And deep inside
My tears I’ll drown
I’m losing grip
What’s happening?
I stray from love
This is how I feel

Chorus:
This time was different
Felt like I was just a victim
And they cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now I’m in this condition
And I’ve got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you’ll never see me cry

How did I get here with you?
I’ll never know
I never meant to let it get so personal
And after all I tried to do
To stay away from love with you
I’m broken-hearted
I can’t let you know
And I Won’t Let It Show
You won’t see me cry

Chorus x3:

This time was different
Felt like I was just a victim
And they cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now I’m in this condition
And I’ve got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you’ll never see me cry

Now I’m in this condition
And I’ve got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you’ll never see me cry
All my life

"Big Girls Don't Cry"

"Big Girls Don't Cry"

Da Da Da Da
The smell of your skin lingers on me now
You're probably on your flight back to your home town
I need some shelter of my own protection baby
To be with myself and center, clarity
Peace, Serenity

[CHORUS:]
I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
It's time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry

The path that I'm walking
I must go alone
I must take the baby steps 'til I'm full grown, full grown
Fairytales don't always have a happy ending, do they?
And I foresee the dark ahead if I stay

[CHORUS]

Like the little school mate in the school yard
We'll play jacks and uno cards
I'll be your best friend and you'll be my Valentine
Yes you can hold my hand if you want to
'Cause I want to hold yours too
We'll be playmates and lovers and share our secret worlds
But it's time for me to go home
It's getting late, dark outside
I need to be with myself and center, clarity
Peace, Serenity

[CHORUS]

La Da Da Da Da Da

Boys Dont Cry : The Cure

Boys Don't Cry I would say I'm sorry If I thought that it would change your mind But I know that this time I've said too much Been too unkind I try to laugh about it Cover it all up with lies I try and Laugh about it Hiding the tears in my eyes 'cause boys don't cry Boys don't cry I would break down at your feet And beg forgiveness Plead with you But I know that It's too late And now there's nothing I can do So I try to laugh about it Cover it all up with lies I try to laugh about it Hiding the tears in my eyes 'cause boys don't cry I would tell you That I loved you If I thought that you would stay But I know that it's no use That you've already Gone away Misjudged your limits Pushed you too far Took you for granted I thought that you needed me more Now I would do most anything To get you back by my side But I just Keep on laughing Hiding the tears in my eyes 'cause boys don't cry Boys don't cry Boys don't cry

Arisan... Cinta Terlarang

this one of my favorite song

Pink

Darin

Revolverheld - Unzertrennlich

cheek to cheek, frank sintara

original track from frank sintara.

this song for my best friend Leo

check this out,

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cheek to cheek, sanjaya version

my best friend Leo must be know him so well
and i posted this video bcoz every time we meet he always said im like sanjaya malakar.
some people said sanjaya have bad voice but when i open youtube.com and saw some song of him and also download some song from esnips.com i think sanjaya malakar have nice voice and at least he better than people who always think they have great voice.

Heaven
I'm in heaven
And my heart beats so that I can hardly speak
And I seem to find the happiness I seek
When we're out together dancing cheek to cheek

Heaven
I'm in heaven
And the cares that hung around me through the week
Seem to vanish like a gamblers lucky streak
When we're out together dancing cheek to cheek

Oh, I love to climb a mountain
And to reach the highest peak
But it doesn't thrill me half as much as dancing cheek to cheek

Oh, I love to go out fishing
In a river, or a creek
But I don't enjoy it half as much as dancing cheek to cheek

Dance with me
I want my arm about you
That charm about you will carry me through to...

Heaven
I'm in heaven
And my heart beats so that I can hardly speak
And I seem to find that happiness I seek
When we're out together swinging cheek to cheek

Come on and dance with me
I want my arm about you
That charm about you will carry me through
Right up to...

Heaven
I'm in heaven
And my heart beats so that I can hardly speak
And I seem to find that happiness I seek
When we're out toghether dancing
Out together dancing
Out together dancing cheek to cheek!

Liltle wonders _ Rob Thomas

i really like this song. Rob thomas is my favorite singer, check this out

let it go,
let it roll right off your shoulder
don't you know
the hardest part is over
let it in,
let your clarity define you
in the end
we will only just remember how it feels

our lives are made
in these small hours
these little wonders,
these twists & turns of fate
time falls away,
but these small hours,
these small hours still remain

let it slide,
let your troubles fall behind you
let it shine
until you feel it all around you
and i don't mind

if it's me you need to turn to
we'll get by,
it's the heart that really matters in the end


our lives are made
in these small hours
these little wonders,
these twists & turns of fate
time falls away,
but these small hours,
these small hours still remain

all of my regret
will wash away some how
but i can not forget
the way i feel right now

in these small hours
these little wonders
these twists & turns of fate
these twists & turns of fate
time falls away but these small hours
these small hours, still remain,
still remain
these little wonders
these twists & turns of fate
time falls away
but these small hours
these little wonders still remain

antoya park, saarbrucken

antoya park is a park which designed for a stimulate for people who like do climb in the forest or jungle, there are 4 level and for me its quiet difficult because in one level many step that we have to step away.

for now i cant show the pictures of that adventure but i will post it as soon as possible

pictures... (coming soon)

fly with a stupid arabian steward

yeah i arrived 5 minutes earlier then schedule :D and the flight was nice actually after separated from Singapore. the stewardess named Rina who sat in front of us really nice. she also got degree from London School, so we talked about our lecture, yeah its small world. :D but she have to changed to other stewardess in Colombo. but the second stewardess so nice, she is Chinese Singaporean. oh my god all Asian so nice. her name is Florent but she not going to Frankfurt, she just stop in Dubai bcoz she worked from the morning and tired already and wanna take a rest. from Jakarta to Dubai i had really nice flight. i met u, Rina and Florent :D and Rina gave me complementary. playing card, some puppets, etc :D she so nice and Florent wrote my number in a comment that i like the flight.

From Dubai to Frankfurt, i had not so nice flight and its bcoz of the stewardess really not nice. can u imagine how u fell if u in a same flight, the stewardesses asked everyone what to drink and u see it and u hear it but in ur turn they don't ask you. so what ur reaction then? i just asked them, "excuse me, u dint ask me what i wanna drink?" and most of them in Arabians. and i hate these Arabians people. they just think we r Indonesians not important.

i asked to Florent what the difficulty of stewardess to handle worker from Indonesia, they said actually Indonesian workers not so difficult they most the difficult are Indian and Arabian bcoz they dont care about the rule and just arrogant. even they r well educated.

one step of Indonesia

i so often think that Indonesia always be lated about something, education, bad national income, corruption, discrimination, Organization who can control society without any rule, they can distroy any home bcoz some reason or god will hate this country. but when i was in europe (still in europe now) i just recognise that Indonesia really full with rich people bcoz their lifestyle and entertaiment always the first and up to date.

i saw a movie in Jakarta, studio XXI-EX. most of the movie i have seen in Jakarta 2 months ago just launch in Europe bcoz in here they have to translate and dub to their language so full of work.

so Indonesia not really poor just full of selfish people who just think about their self to get up to date and stylish product.

BBB (bukan bintang biasa)

this movie is adopted from a movie "high school musical" and now in Indonesia they try to make a same story like thats movie. i remember a sentence from someone, if we cant create a new things, so just try to re-create something and make better then before, so we can learn something from thats. hopefully this movie will better even i doubt about thats but at least they can make and as success like movie they adopted.

present from Paris

these are photos from Paris. we took some pictures for some friends to shareour happy moment... hmmmm happy moment??? hmmmm i dont think so hehehhe

west sumatra food in Saarbrucken, Germany

these are a announcement card for new menu in perspektive1

so here they are

love is compromise

compromise in love, well i think what my sister said its true that love is compromise for me. im lil bit not agree. compromise is like a bargain, like someone divide, u do this and i will do this. i dunno since many year learn about life, 25 years already im in this world, learn about love from many people around me. i think in love dont need a compromise for me. yeah its for me bcoz just do ur best for ur couple but someone have to have their own opinion and life. not always have permit or ask permit to do something. just tell the lover thats ok but to decide or get permit to do something for me it not love.

love for me not ask something (expect) but just do ur best n not expect to much bcoz we never know when love will be end. because if someone expect to much for love. i think he or she just make uncomfortable or inconvenience for them (both). when they expect to much and then the lover cant make it come true it can be a disappointed. so for me love is just u, just do ur best not expect to much.

fight for love as long as ur love respect and respond the love. but when love not respond ur love...so dont waste ur time. i believe many people out there waiting for u and the end u will find some match to u.

u cant push someone to match to u or u push ur self to macth with someone bcoz match is a natural, sooner or later if u force one of u will feed up and like a bomb...